hello birdies! it's been a rough couple of weeks / months for me.... on July 21st i was rushed to the hospital with an extreme high bloodsugar value....and since then i'm in this bad movie with tests, hospital visits etc. turns out i've Diabetes Type 1 Lada....
yes. me. the i-don't-eat-sugar-for-a-year-already-girl. i was feeling not well for quite some time now. but every little 'itch' i had, i blamed it on the Fibromyalgia. didn't go to the doctor...
except on July 21st. i thought maybe my B12 vitamines levels are low again. let's get my blood tested. and oh, Doctor, i'm so extremely thirsty and i pee a lot. like liters. so i had to get my blood taken in the next room. within a few hours she called me. no good news, please sit down. you've Diabetes, and I've talked to the internist and you have to be on the ER within 30 minutes..... OK than. is it that serious?!
i was in the hospital for 4 hours and they pooked every limb i have and than some.
i got a shot of insuline and aftre 1 hour, my blood levels were 'acceptable' to go home. otherwise they wanted to have me for the night. so i called Arjan (he had dropped me off from the hospital), and he & the kids came pick me up. ohhh the faces of my sweethearts. they were crying and so happy to see me again. they had made me a 'lucky box'. with a few charms and handmade sweetness in it. it brought tears to my eyes. i felt overwhelmed in a good way, with their love, but i was soooo freaking exhaused. all i wanted was sleeeeep.
the next day, another day at the hospital and there i got my medicine. two kinds of insuline, needles, sampler to take blood to test, and metformine, a medicine i have to take 2 times a day. it was like 'the happy box" you can get here in the Nethrlands when you are pregnan, but than for me a 'happy box for Diabetics....
fast forward a few weeks of shooting insuline 4x a day, measuring blood glucose levels 4 (or sometimes 8) times a day. feel horrible. getting hypo's (fainting) when my levels are too low, feeling extremely anxious, irritated and HOT, when my levels are too high. it's like almost undoable to get those blood levels 'normal' for whatever normal is.
so i'm struggling. feeling 'not well' on a daily basis. trying to exercise more (i was exercising already, thank you, but i need like 1 hour a day!).
and accepting the fact that i'll be an insuline junky for the rest of my life. yes i eat as healthy as i can, and please google type 1 and type 2 Diabetes before you tell me how to 'get over this'. because i can't. those are 2 totally different illnesses actually. but just google it if you want to know more.
ofcourse i've been creative too in the hours i felt ok. and i'll upload asap (if you follow me on facebook or instagram, you've seen some work).
sorry for being away for so long. but when you are not healthy and not feeling well at all every single day, all you can do is survive this day, and welcome the next and try to make the best of it.
i know ths is not the end of the world. but being dependent of medicine kinda feels sucky. big time.
life is good. i'm lucky insuline was invented :)