you all know what it's like. you read other blogs. blogs that inspire you. make you want to create. stories you love to read. and sometimes, just sometimes you get this overwhelming feeling that other peoples lives are so much more perfect and 'together' than yours. well, let me tell you, you are WRONG.
let me start by frequently confess a piece of my life, my personality which is uhm.... FAR from perfect. far from being such a lovely mom. use it to your advantage <3.
like the fact that i scream at my kids. a bit too much to my opinion. it usually happens when i'm exhausted, irritated, busy doing work-related stuff or just not feeling happy. it happens before i can think about the count-to-10-rule. i'm not proud of it. and even ashamed of it. but when it happens i realise i'm a moron. they sure don't deserve the screaming version of me, even IF they are as annoying as they can be, and any other mom would have locked them. but you know, i say sorry. i kneel down. explain to them mommy is just a human being with limits and that i'm so sorry for my meltdown. that i act crazy. that i just wasn't me. and that they pushed a bit too much buttons (which usually cracks a big smile on Rubens face, asking WHERE THE BUTTONS ARE?). ha. not giving them anymore amo then they already have.
and when that happens they forgive me. they say it's okay. we talk about what happened and what we can do differently next time. and that usuallly works. for a day or 2. ha.
i think the thing to learn is: we all make mistakes. mommies too. but to be graciously admitting your mistake and saying sorry for your behaviour is simply teaching them how to say sorry for something you did. and as long as i can do that, i know i'm not completely the worlds worst mom. yet.
{close your eyes, clear your heart, let it go}. available as postcard or print.
life is good. confessing clears your heart.
rev
